Friday Week 3

All evening I've thought it was Saturday and it's Friday! Good in the way that I appear to get another day of the weekend, bad in the way that another day before my points reset! LOL!!

Over, but hey ho!!

Night,
Weeza xx

Thursday Week 3

So, this is where it gets dangerous, I'm over the week and daily points and thinking hell, who cares and then stuffing my face and drinking (low alcohol) wine! Need to be very careful!!

I'm -19 PPs for the week, it's Thursday and we have the second wedding of this year on Saturday! I either do an immense amount of exercise tomorrow and Saturday morning, or it's game over completely!!!!

Going to be strict tomorrow and try to put some exercise in tomorrow night!!

Night,
Weeza xxx

Wednesday Week 3

Used some points from weekly on coffee, crisps and chocolate! Back on track tomorrow!!!

Love
Weeza xx

Tuesday - Week 3

Another miracle day!! Bang on the points and I got on the scales this morning and couldn't believe that I'm 2.6lbs off from Sunday's weigh in!! Now if that's not motivation, what is??

I'm away tomorrow, there's my danger point! I'm packed with a sandwich for breakfast, a couple of snacks, my measuring tub with my milk in it and a bottle of my low alcohol wine. I've planned my lunch on a stop at an M&S service station and dinner from a walk to Tesco on West St in Sheffield. I don't care if the lift is still broken either, as I will earn points walking up the stairs!

Right off to bed as I have a early start, going to Telford first then across to Chesterfield, just hope there isn't any floods on route!! :)

Night,
Weeza xx

Monday - Week 3

Erm, how did that happen???!! Bang on 26 points again!!!

Well, firstly, thank god the vending machine at work was broken, it avoided a near catastrophe!! Plus a turkey casserole leftovers frozen from last week, bulked out with veg for dinner! Lunch was non existent, a tub of spinach and rocket, plus a tray of melon, pineapple and mango, cos meetings overran and I didn't have time to heat my soup!

However, apart from nearly fainting from hunger at lunchtime (3 bloody PM), I've not felt hungry!

So, still 49 points of weekly allowance AND 4 from the walks yesterday! That is a miracle! Tomorrow tracked already!!

Nite!

Love,
Weeza xxx

Sunday - Week 3

Well, straight from Punch and Judy, "that's the way you do it"!! I've done the whole day, the WHOLE day, absolutely everything tracked, on 26 points!! My daily amount, the weekly untouched and 4 bonus points waiting from walking the dog twice today!! How good do I feel? Bloody amazing!! I've never done a day without using some of the weekly or bonus or going over all of it!

I've not felt hungry all day and I've even had 428ml of wine tonight! Tomorrow is tracked and food is in the fridge, ready to go! I'm optimistic, but not complacent! Although today has been great, if I take my foot off the gas, it will go wrong!

Right, bedtime!!

Love
Weeza xxx

Sunday Weigh In - 25/11/12

Well, that was more by luck than judgement! Teeny tiny loss! 0.2lbs!

It's Sunday, everything back to zero, let's try again shall we?!!? Nothing happening this week that could cause a slip up! I'm away Wednesday night, but I can plan for that and this week I'm going to hotel not apartment, as I can't face the drive to Sheffield and back for the one night!

Ok, so I'm off for now, back later for a daily update!

Love,
Weeza xxx

Saturday Night Update - Week 2 - Over....

So, pants week really - all round! David's not feeling great again, not his back or stomach this time, he's got a sore throat :( There's no Dequacaine anywhere in the country, so he's having to make do with Strepsils and they don't seem to work as well... I had a shite week at work and my diet suffered for it too! I've still not signed up for the gym either! I don't think this last stone will shift without exercise either!

I'm finishing the week over by 181 points, do prediction is on or the same... I know where it went wrong, the Baileys at the beginning of the week, which used all my weekly allowance in one go! I've said this before, and I can see it now, it's the downfall for the rest of the week! Plus, not tracking in advance, where I'm preparing the night before, or planning stops on the road to get what I've planned for, doesn't give me structure, which I need...

Well it's back to zero tomorrow morning and I'm planned for breakfast and looking for lunch and dinner once I've done this!

Back in the morning for the weigh in!

Love
Weeza xxx

Friday Night Update - Week 2 - Oops...

Again, no Thursday night update, cos I forgot!! Been bad again, don't need to say it, you can see in the photo below...

It's the Sunday night killer which catastrophises the remainder of the week...

Back tomorrow
Love
Weeza xxx

Wednesday Night Update - Week 2 - All gone Pete Tong!!

No ifs no buts, it's buggered!! Too much wine, freebie breakfast eaten early, I'm buggered!!!

Everything on track this morning but off the wagon later... I'm a muppet and going to bed, dwelling on my failure.....

Night,
Weeza xxx

Tuesday Night Update - Week 2 - Meh!!

Well, it did say in my stars that if I needed to 'let it out' today, then I should! So, I did!

I'm normally the caring & compassionate one, that takes everyone's feelings into account but very rarely I let go, where people are genuinely shocked! Today was one of those days!

I've been feeling this building up for a couple of weeks, mostly because people can be too lame to stand up and hold themselves accountable and I have to mop up the mess... Sigh... Every now and then I'll bring it back into check and people realise that I'm not their safety blanket all of the time... Today I couldn't give a toss if it was the Queen I was letting down!!

You know when it doesn't matter what you do, how many old ladies you help cross the road, how many animals you save from certain death, you know that it would be just your luck that the angels at the pearly gates are having a bad day and decide its you that's going to hell and not the mass murderer standing behind you in the queue... Well I obviously pissed the cosmos off today!!! Well, yesterday too if I'm honest!!

I think one of the problems is I've not had enough downtime this year. I've had the odd days off, but mostly to help out when needed, I've had a lot of stress this year, personally and at work and I've had just a week away since January! We're away in just over 5 weeks, but it can't come soon enough! I need some me, David and Munkee time...

Because I'm low, I let go tonight, I finished the Baileys and a bottle of low alcohol wine! I'd have stayed on track otherwise! Now I'm minus on a Tuesday! Minus 30 PP... Ok, so the Baileys didn't start it well on Sunday, but I've made it 10 times worse tonight, and I'm not sure if I don't care or if I'm pissed off!

I've an early start to drive to Chesterfield tomorrow morning, as I'm fed up with being away, so this is preferable! Back on Thursday night. I'm tracked through and have yoga and Pilates DVDs in my bag, we'll see...

Right, off to bed where I'll shout in my sleep again!! Nite!!

Love
Weeza xx

Monday Night Update - Week 2 - Redeeming Feels Gooood!!!

Much, much better! In fact, so much better that I've used the day's 26PP & I can't eat anymore!!!

I went into the day with the day planned out. I took porridge for breakfast and Tuscan Minestrone WW soup for my lunch, and a caramel bar in my bag for the journey. My milk allowance was ready as well. I stopped at M&S in Didcot before going into work, to buy cakes for my birthday and I got some fruit as well., so I could snack on it. Apart from a small fork full of lemon drizzle cake (which I tracked), I resisted all temptation in the office and I'm really proud of myself!

I got home expecting left over pie from last night and David had eaten it all! Secretly I was a little pleased as the pastry accounted for quite a lot of PPs! So I had a WW Mexican Chili with potato wedges ready meal and the broccoli and squash left overs, just 6 PP! I even poured a glass of wine tonight and chucked it because I really didn't want it!

Anyway, happily going to sleep with the next 3 days all planned out! Night!

Love,
Weeza x

Sunday Night Update - Week 2 - How to blow an entire week's allowance....

Drink half a litre of Baileys! When you think a "mouthful" is just a couple of tablespoons at a time, trust me, it's not!!! David just shone a torch at the bottle, as you can't see how much is left and there was only half left... Bitterly ashamed of myself! That's HALF A LITRE GONE!!!

What a moron.... I feel so flaming stupid!! 54 PPs on that! I've done my 26 for the day and 48 of the weekly allowance!!! I've gained a point in walking today, but I've used the whole of my week's allowance!!! Gone!!!

Right, so what do I usually do at this point? I give up for the rest of the week... I have to stay focused, I have to stay bang on track EVERY SINGLE DAY.... Exercise isn't necessarily my redeemer here, cos I can't guarantee that will happen, so it's down to food... I need to ensure I'm filling up on veg and fruit. I have one night away this week, so will find an apartment in Halifax and buy at M&S and Waitrose at the services on the way...

No alcohol, loads of veg & fruit and gallons of water!!!

Right, I'm off!! See you tomorrow!!

Love,
Weeza xxx

Sunday Weigh In...

Done it! Finally a weigh in, on my weigh I day, where I'm under 12 stone! Only by .6lbs, but it's significant to me!

Since I started, which is the photo of me in the white vest at 14st 4lbs, I've lost 2st 5lbs! The photo of me in the red dress is my birthday party, a year ago tomorrow, that's me at 13st 4lbs... The next photo is me at the wedding at the end of October, at 12st... And 3 weeks later and several works events, I've finally got into the 11's!!!

Still a stone to go, but I can do it, and I need to really stick to the effort now! My holiday is 5 weeks away, so possibly another 5lbs can go!

I think blogging every day this last week has helped, I certainly felt that sharing made me more accountable, even if no one is reading my blog... If you are, thank you, as you are my anonymous guardian angel!

See you later,
Love,
Weeza xx

Saturday Night Update

Today's my birthday!!!! I've had a lovely lazy day :) We've been out for dinner tonight, but more on that in a minute!!

Started the day well, a turkey rasher, 2 bacon and a Light Choice sausage, plus my milk allowance. Then I was going to have left over casserole for lunch, but pizza was an option, so I had that!! 13PP!! I walked the dog whilst David was out with next door Nick, but he wasn't into it, so we took him out again... I earned 2PP, which is about 3 miles :)

We'd booked Bluebeckers in Chobham for dinner, I've never been before and it was lovely, but I ate waaaaaaaay too much! We had garlic bread whilst we were waiting, two slices of ciabatta each. I had half a baked Camembert with french bread slices for starter and then Cajun chicken burger for main, with chips, sour cream and salsa. There was guacamole as well, but I gave that to David as I'm not a fan! We shared a bottle of wine, but I also ordered a bottle of fizzy water so I could sip that instead of gulping the wine! Still all the bread and a massive slab of cheese, and I overdid it, even though I left the bread from the burger! No more wine though when I got home!

So, I'm ending the week at -91PP, nowhere near as bad as the last two weeks, but still not good! I have no excuses next week, no events and two overnights, both of which will be in apartments! I'm going to pack two suitcases this time, so they are lighter, can't guarantee that the lift will be fixed in Sheffield!

Anyway, see you in the morning for the weigh in!!

Love,
Weeza, Aged 41 :) xxx

Friday Night Update

No, I didn't forget about last night, I forgot to take my iPhone with me!! I was at the CRN Awards last night, and that involved champagne and wine!! I wasn't too bad though, all being said!

I hardly ate anything yesterday morning, just a light sausage, as I was going to Gaucho for lunch! I had the taster plate, 3 different cuts of the most delicious Argentinian steak imaginable!! No sides, but a good base for the alcohol to come later....

I had a vodka red bull whilst getting ready and a glass of spritzer at the bar before we all left. At the do, a couple of glasses of champagne followed by wine with dinner. I mixed the wine with fizzy water, but still had a few! Dinner was chicken breast, really nice and skinless too! I got to bed just after midnight!

This morning I woke up having a panic attack and couldn't breathe! I think possibly because there wasn't a window in the room that you could see out of, it was really high up. We all stayed at the Royal Horseguards Hotel, rack rates starting at £564 a night for a single room! I had breakfast and it wasn't great for a posh London hotel... I was feeling sick by the time I left at just gone 8, but I walked to Waterloo anyway. By the time I got home, I felt shocking and then launched breakfast down the loo!! All I ate all day was two slices of plain toast, when I managed to keep water down!! I had turkey for dinner, just a very plain casserole.

So, what's the numbers looking like?? I'm 58 over, not as bad as it could be, given the event on Tuesday and last night! It's my birthday tomorrow, so we going to Bluebeckers in Chobham for dinner! I'll go over more tomorrow, no doubt!!

Right, I'm nodding off whilst typing this, so I'll sign out and see you tomorrow!!

Love,
Weeza xxx

Wednesday Night Update...

Blew it!!! Damn and blast and bugger!!! Now 5 over and unless I walk around London all day tomorrow, there is little chance of redemption! I have the awards tomorrow night and a Chinese the night after, I'm doomed!!!

Turkey rashers and eggs for breakfast, chicken Hot pot light ready meal for lunch and Guinness and steak pie for dinner, all healthy, all good... But add the graze box and the chocolate digestive and the WINE, and I had 39 points today :(

I'll be good during the days and save myself for the evenings, it's the best I can do!!!

Love
Weeza xxx

Tuesday Night Update...

Well, nearly blew it!!! Damn event food!! I planned so well, I made my porridge up and went down for a cigarette, knocked for Lianne as arranged but she wasn't well! She'd been up all night being sick! I went back down to reception and got her a late checkout so she didn't need to have to get up! However, I went to breakfast as a habit, completely forgetting about my porridge! I got back upstairs and realised! Idiot!! So that went in the bin!!

I got to the event and resisted the Danish pastries! Come 12:30 I ate the sandwich and felt really good about how well I was doing!! However... The food came out and I had to have a look! And I looked and I ate! A few salmon goujons, a chicken sandwich and a slice of a giant sausage roll plus a small mouthful of treacle tart! I tracked it there and then, and got depressed... 23 PP's plus the sandwich I'd eaten at 8 PP's! I have NO willpower!! So add that to the 10 PP's I had for breakfast (instead of the 6 for the porridge) of sausages, black pudding and scrambled eggs, and there's me at 33 PP's and over 6 for the days allowance and into the weekly... So at the end of the event I went back to the hotel and picked up Lianne. I was knackered as two nights bad sleep, a long drive and a boring long day made me incredibly tired, so I stopped to get a coffee on the way back to stay awake! A Costa vanilla latte, at 9 PP.... Bollox!

I got home and David had made the Thai curry I'd made a fuss about having when I got home! So I had that too! I feel like a pig!!!

So, where do I end the day??? At 58 PP for the day, which is 24 over the daily and weekly for the day, leaving just 5 of my weekly allowance :( I've grabbed 2 back from the walking I did at the event, so I have 7 PP for the week... I have to be so careful for the rest of the week, it's only flipping Tuesday! Eek!

Right, early night for me! See you tomorrow!

Love,
Weeza xxx

Monday Night Update...

Better, cos I planned!! I stayed on track and yes, had a couple of drinks but I'm still within the weekly PP's, in fact, one in the bank even!! Porridge for breakfast, a couple of WW digestives, soup for lunch with fruit and WW jelly, an M&S Count On Us salad for dinner with more fruit, plus skimmed milk measured out for the day! I'm set for tomorrow as well, with another porridge, a Fuller Longer sandwich for lunch and David's making a Thai curry for dinner!!

Fingers crossed I keep it up!!

Love,
Weeza xxx

Sunday Night Update...

Well, at least I've remembered to do this!! Not too bad today, better than most Sundays! I've used 35PP today, which is my 27 daily and 8 from my weekly allowance. I was on track for 27, but I didn't stop at the 2 glasses of wine, I had a bottle (of 5%) which is the equivalent in volume of 2.5 bottle of lager/coke/etc. I'm 1PP over the weekly allowance, so need to bring that back into check tomorrow! I've planned meals for the next 2 days ahead, as I'm in Leeds for the final event on Tuesday... I will need to stop at M&S tomorrow to stock up!

Right, off to bed, where hopefully I'll fall asleep quickly, as I don't feel tired at the moment! David is down at his mum's tonight as she got the winter vomiting bug! She's 72, so needs looking after when she's this poorly! Hopefully she'll be fine come the morning :)

Night then! Love,
Weeza xxx

As predicted!

Another pound on! That's 2.4lbs on in two weeks.. :( I only have myself to blame though! If the week starts bad, it goes to pot for the rest of the week! So I've got to get back to tracking the day before and sticking to it! I'm also going to scrap any alcohol until Thursday, when I'm at the CRN awards! Plus I'm going to take it easy and drink mostly water! I'm going to try to not drink on Friday night either, at the work night out!

I've been reading up this morning on exercising and disc degeneration, as I was sure exercise is something that sets off a spasm! However, I was wrong! So, I'm going down to the school I was at in my teens, as they have a great gym there now and it's pay as you go, rather than a membership which should work for me! Also it's 5 minutes down the road, rather than a 15 minute trek like the last one!

I keep writing my intentions and it seems that when I do, I then don't do it..? Maybe it's a psychological thing, I've written it, so I've done it/don't need to do it/care? I need to hold myself accountable, if I say it, I have to do it? It's a mindset thing, I know, so I need to change my mindset now!

So, tracker back at zero, full 49 PP allowance, and tracking a day ahead so I don't fall off! One night away this week, tomorrow night, which I can plan for now (M&S salad meal) and I can buy my lunch to take to the event, so I don't eat event food! I'm also going to try to remember to blog every day this week, to hold myself accountable!

See you later to blog the day!!

Love
Weeza xxx

Don't be surprised....

....when I report a gain tomorrow!! I'm 221 points OVER this week! It's been a BAD week... I gave up on Monday, I failed on Sunday and the rest of the week was a total cockup!! :0( I didn't pre-track the day before, I skipped breakfasts, yadda, yadda, yadda...!!

So, we'll see tomorrow...

Love
Weeza

Said it again, kiss of death!!

Last week I said I hoped for a pound a week until my holiday and it was a complete kiss of death, again! Disappointed with myself, I ate rubbish at the event again and continued that into Saturday!! 135 PP over...

Starting again this week & I am changing tactics for the event this week as well! I'm away for 3 nights, but 2 are in an apartment. I'm not going to eat breakfast at the hotel on Tuesday, I'm taking a porridge pot and I'll take my own lunch to the event! In the evening on Monday I'll get something salad like for dinner to eat at the hotel. Then I have facilities to cook for myself for the next two nights. I'll be in the penthouse that I've been in before, so I'll pack a DVD to do some exercise! There's a DVD player there!!

Off to cook my breakfast now... :0) Low fat and filling!

Love
Weeza xx